Unprobable dream

It happened like a distant dream,
subtle and serene.
made me believe in what was a mere illusion,
fated to turn me woebegone and in deep confusion.
In what was a visceral belief,
I found great relief.
However short-lived the bliss be,
the span would be the most cherishable for me.
My heart now cries,
coz of all the decieving lies.
And I wonder why,
How I could rely,
On what was nothing
but an Unprobable dream.

Gesture

Just when I was wondering whether the flames of love are still alive between my parents, that too after 20 yrs of their marriage, they dispelled my doubts.
Other than taking care of dad, meeting his needs even before he mentions, handling him in his sulky self, complying with his likes and dislikes; I also see mom religiously calling up dad every evening to ask him about his time of return and if he has any preferences for dinner. I found it monotonous. I was also wondering that how precise and banal the conversations could become after spending two decades together.
After brooding over the dying flames, I thought that mom’s call to dad was not a routine but a gesture to assure dad that she is waiting for him back home. But while I was marveling at that thought, I wondered if dad reciprocated. Or did he even acknowledge it?
Unlike other days, today; mom felt asleep in the evening, so could not call dad.
And dad called.
On calling up, he promptly asked her ‘wasn’t she supposed to call him?’
Mom’s smile that followed his call was one I’ve never seen her in ever before.
It was the one which nothing but only her husband’s love could bring to her face.
And that was it.
Dad’s call and mom’s blush was suffice to rid me off of all the skepticism.

waiting to be taken over

After the tumultuous day in college and a relaxed evening at home, when I lie in my bed to be taken over by sleep, I keep waiting. I close my eyes to lose myself to a world of darkness and the one without any thoughts fluttering around so as to calm myself and rejuvenate. But if only it could happen. I shut myself off from the outside world but the world inside me insidiously takes over me in the form of random thoughts. I tried my best to coax these shamelessly creeping thoughts away as to give way to calmness to sweep me away. But haplessly they return every night to pester me and keep me from sleeping. I fought with those evil thoughts for several nights before I decided to confront them. I could not take the constantly nagging glimpses anymore. And I took the plunge.
I waited that night for them to shoot and I was ready to deal with them all one by one.
Through all the previous nights I kept warding them off without paying any heed to them but when I finally did, I realized how resentful I was from myself. How unhappy and unsatisfied I was from my own self. I never acknowledged the long list of questions I had to answer for myself. They never permeated in my conscious being, but reminded me of their existence and their urgency to be resolved when I wanted to be unconscious.
While I was confronting them I realized their relevance. They were no devils to inflict me sleepless nights. Instead they were friendly enough to help me resolve conflicts within myself and in my day-to-day life. Now that am not bothered with any such obnoxious glimpses I am easily swept away in the heaven of peace and serenity away from the bustle of my mind.
Finally after the whole traumatic episode inflicted with restless nights I bow down to the efficacy of the divine process of introspection.

I do not know how many of you will be able to understand what am talking about. But those hailing from Delhi and Faridabad might have heard about the Surajkund crafts mela which brings together different colours of India and puts forward a beautiful culmination of culture and traditions which prevail in our own country.

I have been wintnessing the mela for past 10 years without a miss, and has now become a festival for my family. We hold it so close to our heart that we anticipate its glory in the next year the moment we attend the one unfolding that year.

We'd been to see it yesterday, though it stays till 14th feb.I had to take an off from college just to avoid the excess crowd in weekend. I entered the celebration with great fervour but came out disappointed.

For some reason, the magic that it earlier had was missing.

Or perhaps I ecpected too much.